dear dave,

things progressing.  Full busy weekend - printing and visiting Jimmy / Rockville.  Managed to take Remi out to great falls, and spend a lot of time with Hexy too.  And bake a cake.

Little hiccup printing saturday, but I think it will be okay.  I just need to calm-down, print, and deal with what I have once the week is over.

Spent a long day there today, working on large version of "Rest".  A tough print, but I think it will be worth it.  Put everything together towards the end of the day, and am happy with the direction (or progress).  THink it will all look great when we install (A WEEK FROM TODAY!).

One step forward, one half back with Jimmy.  Finally aware of other problems, so more to deal with.  Hopefully will all be manageable.

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Sheon retied my lifesaver last night, and added beads to back.  Now I click like Im walking through a beaded curtain, but like the new cord!

dear dave,

I have been so crazed, frustrated, uptight, manic, crazed.  Wait, I said that one already.

It's been a hard week - managing myself.  Up and down and all over.  Stressed about EVERYTHING - mostly getting drawings done, prints done, t-shirts done all in the same space of time, while making time for visiting and calling and stressing about Jimmy.

Things seemed to have worked out.  I have a solid printing plan.  Imaginary deadlines came and went, and nobody died.  Jimmy getting stronger, mentally and physically.  Shirts came and went.  Checks came in.  Money was transferred and deposited.

So much fuss.  Just need to realize all that I HAVE, and keep moving ahead.  It will work out, like it's supposed to.

Fun lunch with Tom Goss today.  Vitamin C for my mood.

:)

Swamped
sWamped
swAmped
swaMped
swamPed
swampEd
swampeD

! ! ! ! ! ! !

good weekend.  Jimmy very much on my mind.

Successful day printing saturday, but it's rough.  Class is full, and it's all very distracting.  I need to be much more focused.  Hopefully as time goes on, and the new students get settled, it will be better.

Fun pride parade at Tanya's that afternoon.  Hexy got to see Lynda Carter, a big highlight.

Sunday was a little lazy.  Festival in the afternoon.  Not as hot, but super crowded.  We had fun just hanging out, but was happy to leave when we did.

Spent most of the day today with Jimmy, after taking Remi to the vet.  She is definitely progressing, but so sorry to see her stuck there, feeling low and lonely.  But at the same time, I felt strong, and solid, and like I could help and encourage.  She will progress, and we can help.

My schedule will be rough next few weeks.  Worried about staying on track, and productive.  Each day needs to be banner.

rainy soaky friday.

weird summer week.  I'm letting myself just coast along, and I don't really like it.  Reminds me too much of my lost days at bsur.  lagging mornings, long lunches, interminable afternoons, and a quick escape out the door at 6.

Not that bad, but I find myself really distracted, and not pushing.  Then the day is over.

Spent a lot of time drawing yesterday, and think I made progress towards the end.  Decided to skip printing, but felt uneasy about that.  Feel the docezza show coming up, and want to be prepared.  June is already slipping by.

Anxious about Jimmy.  Great reports just after surgery have devolved to set backs, and a delay on leaving the hospital.  I'm praying she can regain her strength.  worried.

Nice to see Erin and Kim last night for pollo rico.  Glad we continue the tradition.

Short print day tomorrow - then pride parade.  Really hope hexy gets to meet linda carter.  fingers crossed!

pretty good day.  some drawing accomplished - some started.

happy to hear jimmy's surgery went well.  Time will tell.  Happy to be in the bubble, as opposed to waiting for it.  The waiting became torture.

long monday walk with Remi in great falls yesterday.  really nice, but odd not working.  Guess it all worked out.

not much more to say.  happy sales have picked up.  Need to pick up my energy, and get going.  still a little stuck in coast.

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summer printing has started.

came early to class today with painted boards, 4 rolls of tape, ice coffee, and anxiety.

I never know what the new specs will be -- getting screens, dealing with new people, new open studio hours.  Everything changes, and I'm always anxious to get a quick read of how things will go.  Now more then ever it really impacts my work, and how things will go the next few months.

Been here an hour now (waiting for screens to dry), and everything feels settled, and Im happy with the new schedule.  WAY too many people in the class, but hopefully they will all die out as the weeks pass.  usually do.  Schedule is great -- no saturday afternoons, but 3 solid weekday sessions.  I'm super happy with that.  I should be able to be super productive.

Happy to have my saturdays back.  Always rough handing over summer saturdays to printing.  Now I don't have to!  Maybe I'll do a bunch of sidewalk sales.

Great day yesterday.  Lots of new work, some potential sales, and just an all around feeling of well-being (business wise).  On the other hand, Jimmy is just ramping up my anxiety about her surgery, and all I can do is wait for the days to pass, and hope she gets through it ok.  Fingers

dear dave,

quick week!  It's thursday already, and I feel the time slipping away.

wednesday - solid day working on my website, updating prints, cards, and adding City Dogs Rescue page.  Great response to that already, which is good.  Happy to be helping.  Think it all turned out well - Lee and and shirt look good.

Decided on a massage late afternoon, so I finished all my immediate work, and left around 5.  GREAT massage.  Really great.  I felt like jelly afterwards.

Today I've been planning all my distribution to Buzz / Trohv, catching up on emails, and hopefully drawing a bit.  Can't believe CORCORAN summer starts already this Saturday.  Probably a good thing, because things are (possibly) picking up.  Commission requests coming in, which is really nice.

Feeling like I'm in a good place.  Excited for the promise of summer.  Taking pictures, setting up Dolcessa, new designs, shirts, prints.

Slight hangover over Jimmy's surgery next week, but I just have to deal.  Ha-I think this is the massage talking!  My outlook always changes afterwards.  More positive, laid back, and zen.  Such a good thing.

lazy holiday weekend.

sat > great falls
sun > bbq in rockville + star trek blah
mon > finished GIRLS and true blood 5

monday was kind of a wash out.  Lazy start watching Girls episodes led to a lazy afternoon watching the time fade by.  One of those days where I WANT to do nothing, but then feel really guilty about it.  I went out the the studio for 30 minutes to do some quick work.  Somehow that (kind of) redeemed me.

Sunday was stressful, but manageable.  Jimmy very stressed about knee surgery, and pretty much everything is a big deal.  I'm anxious to see her through it, and start dealing with the outcome rather then the all the worry.  Worry can be so debilitating.

Really nice walk with Remi on Saturday.  After a shitty Friday at the studio, I had resolved to work after all, since Hex would be busy.  Then in the shower, I reversed course.  It would be my first saturday off in weeks, and corcoran is already starting up next week.  Why not enjoy the fing holiday??!.  So I did.  Always nice to walk the paths with Remi.  Relaxing, sunny and calm.  Just where I wanted to be.

classic
typical
pathetic
obvious
ridiculous
no big deal
sad
scary
without consequence
mistaken
unnerving
cyclical
will never happen again
always ends up this way
what the fuck?
it's okay
jeez
seriously?
come on
thought so
like clockwork
so predictable
happens every time
do- over?

dear dave

good solid productive day after yesterday's malaise.  Back in business, and into the future.

Trip to Buzz, emails, and shirts for Trohv.

It's getting warm (finally).  Soon the air conditioner will have to go back in the window.  The constant hum and door closed.  Blah, not really looking forward to that scenario.

dear dave,

Monday after the big MCAweekend.  Not such a great success, but feeling relieved it's through.  All I can do is stay positive and keep working.

Such a crazy schedule last week, trying to tie up the 1000 loose ends I had left for myself.  Most my energy has gone towards squeezing out prints at the corcoran, which didn't leave much time to do all the other things.  I had so many things to do, and last wed-sat morning I just kept plowing forward though it all.

But it was a rainy weekend, and there were a lot of other events going on, and people just didn't come like they have in the past.  It was more of a trickle instead of a flow, and a real energy sucker.  Sold some things, and got some laughs, but can't help but feel disappointed.  (but not totally surprised).  It's been a tough spring.

I keep comparing it to my stellar year last year.  I was flying HIGH, and felt so confident about the future.  so many irons in the oven, and everything just seemed to be working out so well.  This year has been a complete contrast.

Things are just different.  I don't know why - but they are.

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today I took it pretty easy, but tomorrow is the start of a new chapter: summer!  I have work to do, and will just keep plowing ahead.  Corcoran closed for a few weeks, so I can concentrate on other things.  NEW.  I really need NEW.

stay positive!!!

Jimmy's flowers

unsettled (night) in Rockville

waning amerillys

micro print suite

Working on my bunny print

Sheon stealing a cupcake at Tanyas

double recipe, double sentiment

Sue & Bella

packed up inks from the print studio

painting the cage gate

Last minute print

hexy at (pre) open studios

tired inside and out.  countdown continues

trekked to hope depot

framed bunny prints

started painting gate

re-hung RON WORRIES  (thx hx)

made t -shirts

finished Ronnie's project

repainted vestibule

returned emails

went to ms pixies with hexie

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that's enough! (?)  I'm just a bundle of nervous anxiety and self doubt these days.  ready to move beyond this weekend, and into the next chapter.  but first, must continue to give this weekend my all.

dear dave,

another busy day!  got a lot done, but the list is still long...

tick tick tick~

SPRING 2013 printing officially over today!

wow - really really spent after this week.

This morning I woke up in Rockville, and felt so displaced. Luckily remi was with me!

After breakfast I decided to plant all the flower beds, as long as I was there, it was kind of early, had to be done, and the weather was good.  Once I started I couldn't stop until I was done - and it was a big job. By 10:30 or so I was exhausted and sweaty and dirty and the day hadn't really even started.

Drove home with Remi, showered, and went to work at the studio.  Schedule had to be scaled back.  No other option.

Was productive today, and set myself up for a long day at the corcoran tomorrow.  Last "official" session, but hoping to squeeze some in early next week.  We'll see.

Rough time.  Schedule is jammed - all leading up to end of semester, beginning of summer, MCA weekend, mothers day, and regrettably Jimmy's knee replacement surgery.

I need to put down printing, and pick up all the other things seeping through my hands.  Another week, and some just keep getting pushed off.

Dear Dave